So what has changed, am I ill? Have I lost my various jobs? Have I had a terrible accident? No I'm finally learning to delegate and prioritise in a rational and less panic stricken way.
How did I reach this state or nirvana... through being too exhausted mentally and physically to be in control of everything. So I have let go of trying to acheive SO much.
Things that are being let slide (onto a soft landing pad I hope)
My garden plans - looks like a gentle evolution will take the place of my set plan of action
My wardrobe - is bare and beautiful, I have ditched so much stuff and am making good the things I love
My time on the computer - I'm monitoring this too
Fear - has no place here, I will confront and deal with all worries head on and swiftly
Time for others - this is more important than clean floors or tidy hair (neither of which I have ever had)
Sleep - whenever I need to
Medication - no more steriods, no more immune suppressents whoopie and I feel and look so much better
Work ethic - I do what I love (gardening and design, writing and blogging), but only at times that work for us as a family, I will not dictated to by anyone no matter ho much they are paying me!
Plans - small, acheivable pockets of happiness xx
Lastly this change of thought and heart is thanks very much to my wonderful friends Luke and Kate, if you read this guys you saved my sanity when you came to stay, I can't thank you enough for helping me through a tough time x
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